Jeez

Jesus, it's been...forever. Almost 2 years. I'm back in San Diego, I'm a senior now. Holy fuck. Haha. I really miss Virginia. Isn't that FUNNY? Sophomore year was just so much fun....and I really miss it. I made new friends in my sophomore year. Amy Judd, Joon-Hyung Yee, Kasey Chau, Duke Nguyen, Roy Endo (actually he sat next to me in History freshmen year but he didn't remember me). Me, Tim Pham, Amy Judd, Cynthia Tong, Alex Zhao, Sean Yang, Teddy Liao, Jam (Joon-Hyung) Yee, Roy Endo, Kasey Chau, and Shannon Chen became the Asian Crew. God, I miss them. I found out that Jam did like me, and if I had stayed in VA, I'm pretty sure he'd be my boyfriend. Fuck man. Fuck. I missed out. I mean most people wouldn't think he's cute but...I loved his personality. Oh and Michael Cronk, I became super close with him when I was in Virginia (my sophomore year). I miss my Virginia friends. Isn't that just laughable how much I wanted to get back to CA and now I want to go to VA? Now that i'm back in California, I've been spending so much time with Izy. I mean that's fine but I only spend time with one person. I've started to work though, in Mira Mesa a H Mart was built and a Paris Baguette inside it. I work at the Paris Baguette. There I have a lot of new co-worker friends. I like to plan get-togethers with them. Mostly because I like this guy, his name is John Moon. JJ for short. As Sandra would say..."Jimmy John" XD anyway, yeah so I like him but guess what...he's fucking taken. He has a girlfriend in LA. Damn my luck man. Haha, sometimes he pisses me off though >< Normally he works Saturdays with me, but this week he's working Friday. I feel like he switched this week because I said that I was leaving early on Saturday...but then again I could be wrong and I just WISHED that he did that. HA well. But Izy keeps reminding me, every day that i work with him, that he's taken and that I should just give up. I'm trying. IT TOOK ME 3 YEARS TO GET OVER DEREK MANN. PLEASE! and JJ is the first guy that I've actually liked (like seriously) since I've come back. I tried to get back in touch with my old guy friends here... Alec Matthews or Matt Peng or Kyle Smurlo or Taylor Cottle or Connor Mann. To no avail. *sigh* Oh so on March 15, 2013 Scripps Ranch High is having their Sadie's and Izy's mom said that Izy can only go with her boyfriend Josh (yeah boyfriend! amazing right? I'm glad she has a boyfriend. he's a nice guy, he goes to SDSU) if I go with a guy. I've asked 6 guys, 5 have said no. You know, that's actually really REALLY downgrading. Does NO one like me? Ok, fine...so like 3 of them I haven't talked to in a long time but minor details. Still, JJ is the only one that said maybe and even he is most likely a no. FUCK. Maybe I can just go with Diana. I don't know. I've applied to 13 schools, so far I've heard from 6. 5 acceptances and one rejection. Not too bad right? I'm stuck between three schools, Purdue, University of Massachusetts-Amherst ($8,000 scholarship for 4 years) and Virginia Tech. VIRGINIA! I miss Virginia. I'm still waiting for other schools though. I don't know. I'm done with school. I don't want to try anymore. I don't care. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of trying and of pleasing. I'm tired of being tired of trying. This is ridiculous. Good bye. For now. We'll see if I'll write again. Maybe in another 3 years? ;]