Fading away, no one would notice. I'm only a memory

You tell me to think happy thoughts. Of rainbows and unicorns. But it's hard to think that when you're the reason I'm sad.
Sandra's new status message - I would notice if you faded away, because I would fade away with you too, and maybe then they'll notice how oblivious and wrong they were. You are not just a memory, you are mah fwend :D
For some reason, just talking w/ everyone made me feel really sad its like im not part of their life anymore and no matter how much i call it wont matter and i cant b there wen my friends need me it makes me feel like a bad friend and like im worthless i cant think straight but its hurting and im thinking that if i stopped calling/texting/fb-ing them then they would notice sure maybe some but like laura or izy they wouldnt notice they only call/text wen i call first Sandra: it does matter ! it matters to me :D me: thanks but no offense, i want more friends to care too but it doesnt seem like anyone does which is probably true (except for Sandra) and wen something sad happens to my friends i want to be ther to be able to hug them and comforthem but i cant oh wow im talking about nothing im done now its fine thanks
Sandra: well, part of the reason is that they never pick up their fones!!! D:< u should call moree ppl :D
me: yea12:07 AM like who?
Sandra: kyle, tayday, and matt h. seem to careee :D me: not rlly if i didnt call them they wouldnt call me
12:08 AM Sandra: but at least they talk more on da fone and actually pick up their fones -.-''
me: yeah
12:09 AM Sandra: sigh, don't worry, at least there's still me that cares :D and for the ppl that don't, then they don't deserve to b ur fwendd
12:10 AM me: crosses everyone except sandra off the people-care-about-me list Sandra: awww
12:11 AM me: oh well life goes on i dont need tons of friends Sandra: well, when u decide presents for ppl, you kno what to get for those who don't care bout u :3 (get them somethin retarded!)
12:12 AM me: i cant i still think im important to them
12:14 AM im not gonna cry because nothing happens wen i cry so ill smile :]

I don't know why! I'm just really sad right now. Well. SMILE ON! NO CRYING ALLOWED! DAMN! These stupid tears. I'm just a memory to them. THey don't care, if i faded away. The pieces of my heart, that are carving away. They're called tears. No one can pick them up alone. But no one is willing to pick them up at all. Except one. Sandra's a good friend.
Tom, I'm sorry you broke up w/ Alice. I hope everything turns out okay. I'm sorry i can't help you. But if it helps, i'm here for you